比赛结束了，终于放下心中的一块大石。可是却又添加了一种空虚，莫名其妙的空虚，因为不能和我的伙伴们天天在一起了。 After comp, i really don't know what should i do, i feel so empty, that my fellow squad mates are not beside me everyday. Man, i still remember the fun times we had during training, i really appreciate it, how i hope my squadmates and I can be in one class and study together. It would be really fun, but it's not reality. God, i really hoped that we can have squad outings everyday:D, i'm sure many of my squadmates think like that too, especially william. haha.. he wants to have another squad outing, maybe dont have movie this time, but just walk around, maybe that's what kaiping is hoping for yesterday? lols.. Im thinking of a time to organise this..haha.. Anyway, this is not the only reason for me to stay with squadmates, another reason is that, i have a feel or torment whenever i reach home. The atmosphere is just always not right. My mum is always angry, everyone is angry. and im like nothing, but the venting machine(vent anger)... haiz.. im binded my alot of rules that my mom set.. how i hope things could return to last year, where i had a lot of freedom, when i could do my studies quietly at the library with my friends, and play like crazy at home... how i longed for that again... haiz... Close up from love, I didn't need the pain. Once a twist was enough...
